He doesn't want to leave her, he wants her to love him but he also doesn't want her to get hurt when he lets go. Depression has heard about her because in the midst of his depression he is thinking about her and having to leave her. He wants her to move on to another person so she doesn't ' get stuck on way'and end up like him because 'the other sides a scary place' and depression is at her front door waiting for her. Now at the point in the song when he says 'if he stays, well that just means I've got numbered days till I go back to my little world where it's just me and my imaginary friends.' I think he is now starting to talk to a new lover that he and revealing to her about his broken past. Now at the part where it says 'no I won't waste away my love onto something new' that he is now talking to his deceased lover because he says if the only way out is death then he would come back for her, but they don't belong back in misery on earth.

I think the her he is talking about is an old lover who took her own life because of depression and he still can't get over the fact that she's gone so he makes her up in his head. He can't tell if the voices are real or just a made up version of her again. He wouldn't be surprised if he had more things mentally wrong with him because of the voices he hears and talks to. It keeps coming back just when he thinks that it's gone, and now it's starting to feel like it will be with him forever and that there is no escape. It's giving him advice to do things that see good but only end up hurting him. R.I.I think that the ghost in the bedroom that haunts him at night is depression and depression's friend is anxiety, and that that is who he is talking to in the beginning. but thats what i'm feeling when i hear the song. Meaning, they want help because their in a depressed state of mind, and it might cause them to do harm to themselves. Meaning, spring came around and their still depressed, still seeing her face, wanting her to come back, wishing. They promise themselves it'd be the last time, yet they'll never forget, so it's endless. Meaning, It's a memory they are having, bringing back the past, making them depressed again, just like when it happened. OR that he or she wants the memory to stay with her because he doesn't want the hurt in his/her heart. Meaning, he or she wished that it had been them that died, in replace of her. Meaning, He (or she) misses her, and their depressed as the season changes from winter to summer, people tell him or her to get over it, yet the feeling will never change. Song MeaningThis song reminds me of my cousin, Zachary. Long story short, a painful meory is tearing him apart, and he's torn between trying to forget it and dwelling on it until it kills him. He's apologizing to her for trying to stop thinking about her. A part of him wants to forget her completely but a bigger part of him feels guilty for just forgetting, so he's torturing himself with the memory. In the chorus he is saying that thinking about her and everything that's happened is basically driving him crazy. She 'took his heart' when she passed away, and he feels as if he doesn't even have one any more. He's depressed and at a loss for what to do about his misery. ('The memory' may refer to the memory of her in general or the specific memory of her death). He shows this by noting the passing of the seasons, and saying that he still can't stop thinking about her and the memory of her death. He knows he should be able to get over it and people are telling him to move on, but he can't, and it's frustrating him. Or maybe just left, but I get the vibe that he's grieving a loss. A girlfriend, friend, whatever, someone he was close to and that he cared about passed away. My InterpretationThis is how I see the song.

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